Getting there

Well I actually hung some pictures on the walls today. That always makes it feel like home to me. I still have boxes to unpack, but I am slowly getting there. Today we went to a new playgroup with MOMS Club for Garrett, it was nice. I saw just how much smaller he is than the kids his age and I feel bad for him. I liked these ladies, but I still find myself wondering where do I fit in? I really haven't made a whole lot of friends here, and it is hard. Michael will start traveling again soon and I am worried about being here alone again. I find myself almost ready to scream by the end of the second day he is gone, and it is no fun. My friend Sherry is great for a shoulder, but she also has 3 kids so she is busy with them as well, and they are all either in school or in MDO 3 days a week. I have tried to make a few other friends but I really feel like I just don't fit in anywhere. I hate that feeling. In Ohio, the friends that I had were ones that really got me and still do, and here I just feel like people don't understand me, or something about me makes them not want to hang around me. What is it about me? Am I a needy friend? Or are we just different people from different worlds? I am trying really hard, and maybe that is the problem too, I try to hard and it pushes people away. I am just not sure. Any insite would be great. I am trying to get a team together for the Light the Night Walk, and that is proving to be a little challenging. I think if people would give me a chance to tell them about the walk and the cause, they would want to walk. But most people just don't want to. I am sure part of it is that it is on a Thursday night, but it is such a great cause. I have also taken on a playgroup of my own, so far we only have 3 people, but I think it will get better. So I am putting myself out there and hopefully it will be a great thing and I will make these great friends. Wish me luck. I can use it.
Well I guess that is all for my pity party tonight. Thanks till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come.