Its Monday

Its Monday and fall break is over. The girls went back to school and G and I had a nice morning of playing and napping. I admit I was exhausted and took a nap today to. It was really nice. B and T will be here tomorrow and I cant wait. I got G's overalls done last night, they turned out really cute. Sorry the pictures are not so great I took them with my phone, and I will take better ones when he has them on. I am very proud of them.

Today was my grandmas birthday and I had a little bit of a hard time with it. I wanted to see her and call her, but I knew that wasn't possible so we bought some balloons I wrote her a note and tied it to the balloon, and the girls wrote notes and drew on their balloons and we sent them to heaven. It was nice to think she could get a message from us even though we couldn't see her. I miss her so much.....................

Well I need to go get the house cleaned up while the kids are asleep so it will be clean tomorrow or somewhat clean.

Loose Tooth

Well today we have had a good day. Michael left for Vegas and arrived safely. The girls and I spent the day playing outside and with a friends from around the block. I have a few fun stories to share I will start with G. He has started to point at things that he wants. I think this is a great step in the right way. I have been worried that he doesn't communicate with us, but he is getting there. He will point and go uuu uuu until you give him what he wants it is very cute. He is such a cutie! Now for the story of the day. Hhas had a loose tooth for over a week now. I mean very loose and the tooth was coming in under neath it. But she would not let us pull it. So tonight as always I put them down for bed at 8pm. At about 9:30pm she comes down and says "I pulled it mommy" I asked her pulled what and she said "my tooth" I said oh good. Her mouth was bleeding so we went and rinsed it out. Then I went upstairs to get her tooth fairy pillow, she was very excited. this is her first tooth to loose. SO I got her in bed got her tooth in her pillow. Then I start thinking huh I have no cash. What am I going to do. So I went outside to see if anyone was still up that could watch the kids while I went and got cash, of course there were a few lights on, but I didn't want to show up at someones house at 9:30 so I though well step son can watch them for the five minutes it will take to go get the money. SO I set off to get the money. Of course, I have to get $20 out of the atm so I need change. So I went to get change and the first place didn't have it so I stopped another place and got it. When I arrived home H was waiting for me, she said "I pulled another one mommy" In my hast earlier I hadn't noticed that she hadn't pulled the tooth that had been loose for over a week, she had pulled the one next to it. Now she had pulled the other one as well. So now we have 2 teeth in the pillow and cash to put in them. I must go now as I am tired. Please pray for Ethan he is not doing well. http://www.ethanpowell.com/.

Well its friday the last day of fall break

This week the kids have been on fall break. It rained all but yesterday and today so it has been a LONG week. The girls have been fighting all week and I cant wait until Monday rolls around. I love my kids more than anything, but this week has been very long. H still is having some attitude issues and is mean alot of the time to L and I just don't know what to do. She is such a sweet little girl to everyone but L and I. Is she mad at us for something? The thing is I am trying so hard to be that "good" mom and I feel like I am failing miserably. I am praying for Gods wisdom and guidance to get us through this. H has said she is ready for school to start back as well, I know it has been a long week for her too. I feel bad, we didn't really do anything special for their week, and that is again my failure as a mother. But it is just so hard. I never dreamed that at this point in my life I would be a stay at home mom of three. I always wanted kids, but in my vision I was at work with one child not three. And I am trying so hard. They are so important to me and I wouldn't trade one day with them, even the bad. I just know that being a stay at home mom is so very hard. Please pray for guidance for me and for the kids.


Everyone is finally starting to get well, although G still has some chest congestion, tonight he is sleeping with the humidifier on so we will see if that helps him. He and L both have a runny nose, and L has been a little whinny this week so I don't think she feels just right. G finally has three teeth. One of his top teeth broke through this week, and you can see the other is just about to. He also looks to me to be gaining weight. He is spitting up much less, and I am going to try to wean him off the reflux meds and see what happens. I pray that he will continue to gain and not spit up with out the meds, as this is the ultimate goal to keep him from having to be scoped at 18months. The allergies are still present so we will continue with the allergy meds and hope that he outgrows these. He is not an eater and that is a little bothersome. His diet basically consist of Chicken nuggets, organic waffles, cheerios, and formula. These are the only things I can get this child to eat. I have tried everything and he just wont eat. I have been told that kids who have bed reflux don't like to eat because they associtate it with the pain of the reflux, so as he gets better I hope he will realize that he can eat and it will not hurt him. I have some cute pictures to share that we took at the park last weekend.









Next week B and T will be here I am so excited I cant even stand it. I haven't seen Bsince the cruise in 2004, she has never met L or G and I have never met T. It will be so fun. Michael will leave tomorrow for his annual trip to Vegas, so it is good B will be here. Tonight we took the girls to a park here to go trick or treating to benefit the Ronald McDonald house, we donated a few items and got to trick or treat. This was a great experience for Michael since he doesn't get to do Halloween with the kids. I will post the pictures as soon as I get them out of the camera. Then the week after next my mom will be here for L's birthday . I can believe she is going to be three already. We are planning a chuck E. cheese party. Well at least I think we are, I thought she would want to ride the train then Hailee talked her into the train , and today Lainey told me she wanted to so the train so I will ask her again tomorrow for a final plan and we will go from there.





I know I have not updated in a while so sorry, but I haven't has alot to report. I promise to try and so better.





I must ask a for a few prayer request. Today a friend that I know only through online but have great respect for learned that at 6 weeks pregnant she is having a miscarriage, I too know how this feels and would not wish this on anyone. Please pray for her and her family . I know she can use them. I also learned of a set of twins girls who both have cancer stage 4. That is it their is no stage 5, they need your prayers. please flood Heaven with prayers for their healing here on earth. you can visit them here http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/dunntwins . also please pray for little Ethan who is again going through chemo, pray that it will work this time or their are no more options for him http://www.ethanpowell.com/Encrypted.cfm?id=121.





I know that lately my blog updates haven't been that upbeat, and I hope that the mood will change soon, I just feel like right now things just keep piling on me and this is a great release for those things. I am sorry that they have been downers. Btu know that we are all ok, and although I am having some bad days it will get better,I have handed it over to God and I know he will take care of me and my family and it will all be ok. It is hard to hand everything over to God and not be in control, but I did it when we were looking for a house and look how well that worked out so i know that he will carry me. And I will let him. Well that will be all for tonight, the laundry is beeping that it is done so I need to put it up and go to bed. Till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come....................................

Its another Day

Today the girls both got up and feeling well, went to school. When I took L to school the teacher said "If only all my kids were as good and well behaved as L I would have a great class" I felt so good about that. Tomorrow is our first Brownie troop meeting I am excited, I hope all the girls will have a good time.
Did any of you watch CSI Miami tonight? In this episode Speed a character they killed off 3 years ago came back as a ghost to visit his friend Eric, and Eric really thought he was alive. At the end of the show they are standing at his grave and he is watching them talk as Eric and Horatio stand there. Eric asks Horatio if he ever sees Speed and Horatio says everyday. It made me think Why cant I see my grandma, even just one day? I know it is just a stupid TV show but I want that so bad. My cousin will be having her first baby any day now, she is having a little girl. I know that it is a sad feeling for her as well to know that my grandma will not be here to share this with her. I am sure that my Grandma has picked the perfect little girl to welcome to our family, and I know that she will be with Kristen and the baby each day, but does that make it any easier? No it sure doesn't. There are so many things that I would like to share with my grandma, each day there is something I would like to call her and tell her. I know that she is watching over me and my family from Heaven but I cant talk to her and I hear her tell me how she feels about things. When does this feeling go away? When does it not seem, like yesterday that she was here yet ages ago that she was here? I know that we all grieve in our own way and each in our time, but I just don't think this is a grief that will pass anytime soon. She was always my rock, my best friend, my confidant, there is never going to be a time, or a person that can replace that. I miss her........................... I miss her so much. The other night I was getting out some clothes for H and I found a shirt that she had bought Hthe last Christmas she was here, I remember how she liked the shirt and how H liked it and I was sad, I was sad the we will not have that with her again. As we are getting to the end of the clothing she bought, I find I am having trouble letting go of those things, I want to save them forever. Anyone who knew her knows she liked to shop and she bought the girls so many things. I cant possibly keep them all, and why do I need to? But I just cant let them go. I know that for my grandpa, he wanted all of her stuff gone, this was his way to deal and for me I want it all here with me. Now all her clothes are long gone, and I don't need it, but I just miss her. I probably should seek some grief counseling, but how will they get me passed it. Can they?The 29Th would have been her birthday and I want to be home to go to the grave and just sit all day and be close to her. No she is not there, nor is even her earthly body, she was cremated. Yes we buried her ashes there, but no she isn't there. She never will be. I haven't been back since the funeral, I haven't seen the headstone. I hope to do that at Christmas, but I am not sure I can go back to their house without her, without her stuff. When we went for the funeral, I avoided her room, her bathroom. The places that I could where she was daily. I of course couldn't avoid the living room or kitchen, but I avoided her car it was hard to not think at anytime she would walk through the door. I am just not sure i can do that again. I recently found out that some people we know back home lost their 11 month old daughter earlier this month, and I feel so bad for them. I cant even imagine loosing a child. Each night I pray for the safety of my children, and I cant imagine how I would deal with that. My prayers go out to them. I know that it must be so hard for them. How do you move on without a child? I know that God will never give you more than you can handle. I know that I could not handle that. Anyway please pray for this family, I don't want to go into great detail, but just pray that they find peace with the fact that their little Angel is now in Heaven running free and playing.
Sorry for the depressing post, thanks for checking on us. Till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come...........

Another Abney Weekend

Well Garrett and I had our first E.R. experience this Friday.The kids have all been sick, and Hailee stayed home from school on Friday. She had a sore throat and was running a fever, so I made her stay home even though she didn't want to. As the day progressed, Garrett was coughing worse and worse. At 7:30 I took his temp it was 101, he was still coughing. I gave him a breathing treatment and some Tylenol and put him to bed. He kept coughing and coughing. So at about 10:30pm I went upstairs and got him thinking if I let him sleep sitting up on me he would be able to breathe better. It was not working, he was burning up so warm you could feel the heat coming off of him. And he just kept coughing and coughing and he was having trouble catching his breath. So I woke Michael and told him we were off to the ER so we went. When we got there his oxygen saturation level was at 94% not horrible, but not great. He was running a fever of 103.4 and his little heart was racing 200 bpm normal would be in the 120's. We were given 2 breathing treatments, they gave him a steroid, took his blood for a blood count, and left us to sit to watch him to see if his oxygen saturation would come up and his heart would slow down. By the time we left hi was at 96% and 155bpm which they said is good since he was having breathing issues. He has Croup, he is doing somewhat better although he is still coughing and he wont eat. He is drinking and on the mend I think. Hailee is still coughing, but she is fine, and Lainey just has a cough that wont go away. We were supposed to go on a hay ride tonight in the mountains but I thought it best not to take all of them out in the cold air on a hay ride. So pray that they will all get better.
On a good note, my best friend Brandie, is coming for a visit with her little girl Talia at the end of the month. I am so excited! I haven't seen her since we went on a cruise in May 04. I haven't met Talia yet and am excited to see her. Brandie and i have been friends since we were in the 4th grade, but the distance between us was just so great that we don't get to see each other. She was in Dallas and I here. Now she has moved closer to us only 8 hours away so we will get to see her. Her hubby will be out of town that week, as will Michael so it works out well for us. I cant wait. My mom called yesterday and she had gotten the girls some Halloween overalls, so I asked her to go back and find Talia a pair so we could take pictures of all the girls in their overalls. Wont that be fun!?!?!?
Lets see what else about our week? Hmm I don't think we had anything else. We have our first official Brownie meeting on Tuesday so wish me luck. I am excited as is Hailee to get them started. I guess that is all for tonight. Thanks for checking on us, till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come.......

another Monday

Well as I sit here thinking of all the things I need to do I decided to journal instead. Sometimes that is just a huge stress relief to my day. Today was another day, Lainey and Hailee both had school today, and after I took them I decided to go to the Girl Scouts shop and get a couple of books. Little did I know it was so far away. Garrett and I set off at 8:45 and didn't return home until after 10am. It was a long journey and i was ever so tired this morning, so when I put Garrett down for his 11am nap i laid down as well. It was nice to take a nap, I really needed it! After we woke up and ate lunch we went to get the the girls. Then off to the store. Kroger has baskets for the kids and the girls had a great time pushing their baskets around and filling them with groceries. It made me glad I waited and took everyone to the store with me, they were good although I am sure my ankles from Lainey running over them don't agree. Then we came home the girls played outside for a while and then we read a few books before Michael got home then I was off to a leader meeting for Girl Scouts. Then i got trained to sell nuts. Girl Scouts is big into training, they train for everything. I guess that is good and if it were not me doing the training I would feel great with the fact that the leaders are trained so well. I am meeting some nice people through this adventure although I feel like it is consuming alot of my life right now. Tomorrow we will have a parents meeting and I will go over with the parents what I want and expect for the year and what I hope their girls will get out of Scouting. I hope I can be a good leader. After the meeting I came home to a total disaster, the house looked like a tornado (or 3) had gone through it. I don't understand how they do that when Michael is here and not when I am here. Well I guess I know the answer to that. The kitchen well it also looked like a tornado had hit it, and its name was Michael. LOL Bless him for cooking dinner and feeding the kids but man was it a mess. So of course I got on his case which I guess I should be grateful that he tried and lay off and although I know that I cant help myself. I know he feels like I am a nag and I hate to be that way. I just want a clean house, it makes me feel good. Now if I could just get the carpet clean. That would be great! I hate the carpet in this house. I found a house down the street that I love! It has the same floor plan as ours, but it has pergo downstairs, and color on the walls. It has a fenced backyard, and a swing set. Oh how I wish we could buy it. I am looking for a job that I can work while Michael is home, if you have any ideas that would be great. I am open to all ideas. Well i guess that is all for tonight. Thanks for checking on us, till next time. Remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love, today is gone and tomorrow may never come.......................

Its me! Sorry for the delay in updates

WOW where did the time go? I will try to some up our busy lives in the past 2 weeks. Last weekend was a nice one. On Friday night we went to a balloon glow. The girls loved it. They wanted to go back on Saturday and see the balloons go up in the air so we did. It reminded me of my grandma. It was a bitter sweet reminder that she is not here, but her spirit will always live on. You see when I was growing up, my grandparent s had a cabin in Gunison(SP) Colorado, when I was little we would spend Christmas there, as I got older we would go in July. In July they would have hot air balloons, and my grandparents would sponsor one so my entire family would get to ride unlimited in the balloons when they went up. I think they usually went up 3 days if I remember correctly. We would get up at the crack of dawn and go ride and Chase the balloons. It was a great experience. So when i saw the balloons this past weekend. I remember the fun my family had riding and chasing these balloons. My grandparents never went up in the balloons, they were content to watch all their kids/grandkids go up. My grandparents are amazing people. I could never truly put into words the impact the 2 of them have had on my life and the person I have become. I love them so much. Anyway, as Sunday rolled around I decided to let the girls help me wash my van. They again had a great time and wanted to wash Daddy's car as well, so we did. The girls had a great weekend.




























On Monday it was off to school for both girls. I had Girls scout orientation that morning so I can become a leader. Then on Tuesday we had a laid back day. Wednesday as usual was a busy one for us, the girls had school, Garrett and I had a playdate at our house, then I went to drop off the money I had raised for Light the Night and we had some more friends over, then cheerleading. Thursday was our light the night walk. As the day started there was a 30% chance of rain, it didn't rain all day until about 6:30 it started to sprinkle, by the beginning of the walk it was raining pretty good, but we walked anyway and the kids loved it. I must say a big thank you to my friends who braved the rain for this great cause.




This weekend I had Girl Scout age level training for 5 hours on Saturday, it was very informative and I think I am ready. Now hopefully I will have some parents who want to help out. Lainey is again sick, well I am not sure she is sick I think it may be allergies, but she is coughing horribly. Garrett was just crying all day and didn't want to be put down so I hope he isn't getting sick.





well I am off to bed another busy day tomorrow I will try to update more tomorrow. Thanks for checking on us, till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come.........