Be a better mom

That is what my goal in life is. Be a better mom. I sometimes feel as tough I loose my temper to frequently and too easy. I wish this weren't the case, but it is. So I am trying to work on it. I see so many kids fighting for their lives, and I don't want to take my kids for granted. I want to cherish each day.

Tomorrow is my step sons birthday so we took him out for dinner tonight, since the girls have cheerleading tomorrow and if we waited it would be late before we ate and got home. He choose Hooters, so that is where we went. He wanted a new computer for his birthday so my mom paid for half of it and we the other half and he is getting a computer. He will be 15 tomorrow, so he will be getting a driving permit. It is hard to tell with him how he feels about this. He doesn't really show me emotion. But I know at his age I was so excited about this, so i know he must be.

We have our third OT appointment in the morning. I hope to figure out what is truly going on with G, if it is truly a sensory disorder, or if he just doesn't want to eat. I as a parent hope it is just that he is stubborn, but all the signs not just with eating point to a sensory disorder. Lets hope we make headway tomorrow.

Being the good mom that I am . I let H's backpack hang all week without even looking in it. So as she got ready to go back to school today I got all the papers out of it. And just my luck she has a music program the day I leave to go home. I am so disappointed. She has never been in a program at school, and I am going to miss her first one. Hubby will have to take the camcorder and record it for me. I told her today that I would be at Grandma's then and I could see the disappointment in her eyes. I was crushed. I hate to let her down. I NEVER go anywhere without them. The last time I left my kids was before G was born when my grandma died, and the one time I leave them she has something at school. I know it will be OK that I am not there, but I still feel horrible.

We haven't had any curious George stories in a while, so I know that a big one is coming. Although I will say not so much a curious George story as an embarrassing parenting moment. The other day I had a friend over, the girls were playing in the front yard, I look out the window and she has her pants pulled down and she is peeing in the front yard. When I asked what she was doing she said "I needed to go potty mommy". Well how do you argue with that. I explained that it is not OK to pee outside in the yard and that you must come inside. LOL I wonder about her. Tonight I was telling hubby that I worry she has something. When she was a baby even in the infant carrier, she always had her feet going. Now as a 3 year old, she moves all the time. She cant stay still to save her life. Tonight when we were at Hooters, we were sitting on stools she was holding on to the table moving her feet. What does it mean that she cant be still EVER?

Well I guess that is all. I am off to bed. Pray for my better mommy status. Till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come...........................

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