Monday, September 22, 2008

I am taking my life back!

As of today I am taking my life back, no more of my kids running the show. I have let my kids be the boss of my house, and no more! I have poor follow through when I tell them things, I frequently don't follow through with my threats. NO MORE! As of today, we have new rules, we have a new time out rug, we have rewards, and we will be earning our privileges. We will no longer yell (including me), we will not talk ugly, (again including me). We are going to spend more family time, and more time be a happy family. We will do what is asked of us, we will pick up after ourselves. And over all we will be happier for it. God I hope this works.
I have two little girls who can and will pick up after themselves. But up to this point, they have just left it for mom, because they knew i would do it. My kids are spoiled, they have more toys than most kids their age, and they take it for granted. I want them to be happy well adjusted kids and I don't want them to grow up thinking everything is always going to go their way. So not only is this for my sanity, but for the well being of my kids.
I feel like I have become my mom, the yeller. I feel like I am always mad at the kids for not doing what they are supposed to, and I don't want that. I don't want them to think that their mom never approves of what they do. I always felt like I was trying to please my mom and I never really knew what she wanted. So my kids will know exactly what I want and they wont be left to guess if they are doing the right thing. I think this will be better for all of us.
I am never very open about the fact that I am a smoker, I hide it from alot of people for fear they will judge me. Well I am proud to say that today will be the last day I will smoke. I have quit with each pregnancy, but after each child I have started again. Well this is an expensive nasty habit, and I am going to quit. Please wish my family luck with me for the next few days as I stop smoking. There are many reasons for me to quit, my kids, my health, the cost. But first and foremost in my mind is both of my grandmothers died of heart disease, and I have a great chance of having it as well. So smoking is not something I need to be doing. Please pray that I make it through these days.
Well I guess that is it for tonight. Till next time remember to hug and kiss your family and tell them you love them, today is gone and tomorrow may never come........

1 comment:

Jessica said...

Good luck to you and your little ones. I have always thought that having disciplined kids will lead to disciplined adults. Don't think of it as punishing your children, but teaching them valuable lessons and respect for you and for themselves.
Be easy on yourself if you're both quitting smoking and instilling new rules on the kids. The nicotine withdrawl is going to be difficult, but you can do it. I believe in you.